Seeing It As It's Going To Be

Increasingly, as I dive in and come out of the experiences, it gives me the sense of deja-vu (deja-vu is only of the ten possible psychological phenomena possible at such times. Here is more on the topic.).

And the wonderment continues; only this time it is a little different. Now it is meta-wonderment (that is, wonderment about wonderment).

Every time that I have the feeling that "I know this", or "I have already been into this situation", or "I have had a dream about such and such thing before it actually happened", it also gives me a potentially charged up feeling of being special.

And whilst feeling being special (and, better than the other), I give a push and a massage to my petty ego.

And the brighter side of me gives away a valiant smirk...



By the way of meta-wonderment, then, I wonder - I feel that I had wished such and such thing, and had 'seen' that before it actually happened. And I thus believe that I am special because I had the "power" to make things happen as per my wish and my "dream".

Now, it turns around and, with a look of a mother to its naive kid, suggests that it is never the surround and the system that aligns to you; it is always you align to the nature. And what you call your will, that which you desire, and dream of, and assume that that's what is making things happen, is rather a reflection of the things to come.

Increasingly, I am made to 'see' and dream what it is going to be
Increasingly, it tells me that I am but an observer and no more
Increasingly, seeing and being is becoming