And the wonderment continues; Only this time it is a little different:Now it is meta-wonderment A wondering about wonderment.Increasingly, as I dive in and come out of the experiences, it gives me the sense of deja-vu (deja-vu is only of the ten possible psychological phenomena possible at such times. Here is more on the topic.).
Every time that I have the feeling that "I know this", or "I have already been into this situation", or "I have had a dream about such and such thing before it actually happened", it also gives me a potentially charged up feeling of being special.
And whilst feeling being special (and, better than the other), I give a push and a massage to my petty ego.
And the brighter side of me gives away a valiant smirk...
By the way of meta-wonderment, then, I wonder - I feel that I had wished such and such thing, and had 'seen' that before it actually happened. And I thus believe that I am special because I had the "power" to make things happen as per my wish and my "dream".
Now, it turns around and, with a look of a mother to its naive child, suggests that it is never the surround and the system that aligns to you; it is always you who align to the nature. And what you call your Will, that which you desire, and dream of, and assume that that's what is making things happen, is rather a reflection of the things to come.
Increasingly, I am made to 'see' and dream what it is going to be
Increasingly, it tells me that I am but an observer and no more
Increasingly, seeing and being is becoming